working Heya mate, care to talk? As someone who suffers from a psychotic disorder, I've been in a similar place myself. I'd be real happy if we got to chat.

    malmon I often have this feeling. Especially as of recent, I've been wondering what life would resemble if I were a bit more obedient, a bit more incurious. Felt even the slightest shred of joy in "sticking to the script". Instead, every moment is a desperate bid to make sense of their experience in the world. A wild pendulum between existential sorrow, and meaningful happiness.

    I want off Mr. Sartre's wild ride.

      I wonder if there is a way to repopulate this place... @clare have you ever thought about trying?

        COUPLED i do think of trying all the time but struggle with motivation and attention span.

        i'm working on a project currently that may benefit lewd (probably won't, we'll see) but not sure that lewd will be my main focus unless it was building something and using lewd as the foundation for it (as opposed to making lewd better).