finally getting around to changing my name and gender on my license and passport. Getting my name change form notarized tomorrow and going to civil court office on monday. Getting this all done now because it is finally time and also before the election bc if trump gets elected honestly i'm p sure they'll try to make it impossible to do all this. I mean they already made this impossible to do in florida, where i was born so I'll never be able to change my birth certificate, unfortunately. I'm just glad I don't live there anymore so I have this opportunity at least. Anyway it is actually all good for the most part on my end things are alright : )

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    Oh, that's very nice. I hope it goes well for you!

    I honestly don't even know if it's possible to change your formal gender here. If it is, it's probably awfully hard and inconvenient.

        months ago i read a post here that boomed me mentally so i stopped visiting but now i am over it. what's good 😅

          i have no clue where i am. place seems dead
          internet is a wasteland
          bored out of my fucking mind as a neet. nothing to do, nothing to say. anhedonia and ennui

          feel intoxicated. powerless to escape being a hikikomori. thoughts feel like they are smattering psychodrivel

          any productive thought i have soon turns to stone. last week, i thought about manipulating my hormonal secretions (in confluence with momentary autogynephilic bursts) to indirectly increase my willpower (a proxy variable). it worked for a week, yet thereafter became useless to me. it's hard to maintain a diet and routine predicated on transforming arousal into productivity.

          i wonder how things will be in a month or two

          i've come across certain ideas during certain schizoanalytic episodes. i'm not sure if i can really handle the full implications of them, since they are, in large part, far too sophisticated for my own mind to even fully comprehend. i really wish someone would take the reins of my own thoughts. i don't even know where to begin at this point
          i wonder if they contain any value at all, even

            working i really wish someone would take the reins of my own thoughts

            hmm, what do you mean by this?

                working Heya mate, care to talk? As someone who suffers from a psychotic disorder, I've been in a similar place myself. I'd be real happy if we got to chat.

                  malmon I often have this feeling. Especially as of recent, I've been wondering what life would resemble if I were a bit more obedient, a bit more incurious. Felt even the slightest shred of joy in "sticking to the script". Instead, every moment is a desperate bid to make sense of their experience in the world. A wild pendulum between existential sorrow, and meaningful happiness.

                  I want off Mr. Sartre's wild ride.

                    I wonder if there is a way to repopulate this place... @clare have you ever thought about trying?