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Man, I have the craziest of dreams, sometimes. Just now, I woke up from one where two pairs of nineteenth century chocolate teamsters (from rival companies) developed a rivalry while crossing west to east of the US, and got into all sorts of witty banter and stuff with each other, and tried to sabotage each other. Notably, they'd give each other samples of the other's product, to be impressed by.

    a month later

    Even though I know next to nothing about Touhou, my mind filled in the details sufficiently enough to render a 30-second long OP for an anime starring Cirno and friends. Complete with instrumental piano music, title card, western licensor, and fandom in-joke.

    ... EVERYTHING IS JULY!!

    I can't remember much of what I dreamt last night, but whatever it was, it sort of took me back to my uni days of playing airsoft. Essentially, I was in an outdoor forested war zone, confined to a rather small area, typical of airsoft.

    I had a pistol, AR, and sniper rifle, none of which I could name or recognise now.

    The main difference from ordinary airsoft, however, was that the guns were deadly. The spirit of the game didn't change much though, as if we were just shooting BBs. So there wasn't really any pain, or sense of finality you have with death, even though people definitely did die. Eventually my team lost, but we were spared as a buddy and I sat against a pillar while the enemy horde carried on. It's not that we weren't spotted, but it's considered bad sportsmanship to shoot someone point blank.

      4 months later

      malmon This reminded me of a dream where I died but unlike yours I did feel very much like it was death, like it was IT.
      In the dream I killed a bully that had tormented me for years (in the dream storyline that is, because no such bully exists irl). As soon as I killed the bully I got surrounded by cops that seemed to materialize out of nowhere. I remember thinking it was so unfair that the bully could torment me without punishment but that as soon as I had defended myself the cops came for me.
      A stern looking female officer walked up to me with a strong air of confidence and authority and injected me with something without even speaking to me or looking at my face. I asked what it was and she said "It's a lethal injection". And then I felt a strong feeling impending doom and the borders of my vision began to blacken, my body started to feel "weird" and I knew I was about to die. Then I woke up all sweaty and nervous.

        tomadoi I remember thinking it was so unfair that the bully could torment me without punishment but that as soon as I had defended myself the cops came for me.

        This definitely feels relatable. Not that I was ever really much of the fighting back type, but whenever I did something bad, it was a big deal, whereas the kids that were constantly messing shit up were given a pass because it was just expected.

        tomadoi I asked what it was and she said "It's a lethal injection". And then I felt a strong feeling impending doom and the borders of my vision began to blacken, my body started to feel "weird" and I knew I was about to die. Then I woke up all sweaty and nervous.

        That is a scary amount of detail. One of those times where waking up all sweaty is the best feeling in the world.

          malmon

          >That is a scary amount of detail. One of those times where waking up all sweaty is the best feeling in the world.
          YEAH. I'm like 98.738% sure that this is the way it feels to respawn. You can feel yourself dying. You're dead.
          And then you're at some random "starting point" like nothing happened.

            tomadoi

            Respawn... Have you ever heard of quantum immortality? Not directly related to your dream, or dreams in general, and it is a pretty crazy theory, but it makes ya wonder sometimes.

              tomadoi There's no end of theories about death that might cause anxiety lol. Ever played or watched Corpse Party?

                malmon I played a bit maaaaany years ago but I could play it again. I was playing yume nikki for the first time like just an hour ago.

                  tomadoi I was reminded of the concept of feeling the pain you felt at death for all eternity. Also a scary one~

                  People keep recommending yume nikki, but I'm too scared to play horror >~>

                    malmon so far I've had a very comfy experience with it but I haven't played it that much and... yeah
                    there's a lot of terrifying afterlife concepts. At least the one you mentioned beats hell.

                      tomadoi At least the one you mentioned beats hell.

                      I'm not sure anyone could tell for certain. It would probably also depend on the circumnstances of your death.

                        malmon Imagine having one of those extremely drawn-out unusual gruesome and cruel deaths and then eternity is just that over and over, mein gott
                        oh well we don't know anyway. I feel bizarrely more afraid of nothingness. Maybe the buddhists had it right and there's nothing that scares us more than letting go of our senses of self.

                          tomadoi Is nothingness that much to be afraid of? Like, what is nothingness? Might it not just feel like the time between you falling asleep and waking up, but without dreams in between?

                          I keep having the most incredible dreams. Like a few days ago, I dreamt there was an "Italian Food Universe" on YouTube, wherein people reviewed sandwiches and stuff from pizza joints and the like. Sounds mouth-watering, tbh.

                            I NEED to tell you guys this dream I had like one or two weeks ago. So in the dream I made a device that allowed me to slowly fly , it was like a self balancing scooter but with like propellers that made no noise whatsoever. I started to just fly towards a random direction while humming and whistling and everything sounded very nice since it heavily reverberated everywhere like the whole world was one of those massive cathedrals. There was also no one around, I think it was early in the morning.
                            Anyway at some point the flying-thing ran out of fuel and I slowly went down, and landed right next to a bunch of armed thieves planning to ambush someone. They saw me and ran after me. I ran away until I suddenly stopped and decided to fight them.

                            For some reason I was very strong and fast, whenever I hit them they seemed to have their entire skulls destroyed right away, all of my punches drew blood and sent them straight to the shadow realm. I KO'd two guys and then quietly grabbed a hammer that was just laying there randomly and bludgeoned their heads, killing them brutally. After that I teleported to a house and I was hiding. I was waiting for the third thief, who was a girl.
                            She quietly went inside the house as I watched her from afar. She was armed with a broom handle and looked terrified. At some point she notices my eye looking at her from a tiny hole and tries to run away but I go after her. She tries to attack me but I just catch the broom handle and throw it away, and then she tries to escape while crying and pleading for her life. I keep chasing and I don't say I word, I don't even seem to have emotions. That's all the dream.

                              tomadoi For some reason I was very strong and fast

                              Rare - the mark of a very good dream ^^

                              Poor girl though, sounds like she was talked into it by the others.