llik3 wrote:
Seriously, you should all just get swords, I've been so happy and resistent to depression since I got mine :-D
Well, I do have to watch out for my wrists now.
I was fairly paranoid. If I hear a sound in the middle of the night I'd immediately think it's a thief, pick up a knife and go check. I used to keep a knife on my table next to my computer all the time. I know it's extremely unlikely that anything dangerous will ever happen and there is no valid reason to be afraid of what is likely to be a cat or the wind but I couldn't feel calm. It's a strange feeling to be doing things that you are fully aware are irrational. I obtained a sword illegally and became much more calm at night. Luckily, I got better a few years later and finally sold it. Good feeling, good feeling.
Loko wrote:
forgot to mention i finally quit osu, i think this is going on my second week now and i've felt little to no urges to play it
honestly thank god, that game tortured me
Nice to hear that. I understand how you feel. I used to play osu 5-8 hours a day back in 2014, I injured my right shoulder by spinning too quick on spinners and basically tensed my right arm all the time. Took almost 2 years for it to heal but I never really stopped playing. Almost got kicked out of college because I spent too much time playing osu instead of studying at one point. Fortunately, I realized I was making a huge mistake and started focusing on studying. I'll graduate in a few months. These days I only play osu a few days a month for an hour or 2 each session because I want to get in "the zone". It's like meditation and it makes me feel at ease.
It used to be that we play osu because we like music. I wonder when that changed into climbing ladder and getting pp
