You have us to talk to, try using the PM system and we might lend our ear to you. When I have nothing in my mind, I'll just lay in bed until something creative hits me or wait patiently for another part of the day. We used to be a fast community but those old glory days were over long before I came.
It only takes a little less than a goldfish to lose track of what we're doing.
Name's Lucian by the way.