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05-24-2019, 11:32 AM
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Somewhat relieved, I guess. Finished my last exam today, but I could've done so much better if I didn't feel like death these past few days.

„Mad in Madrid, must be the wine, Señor~”
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05-27-2019, 06:00 AM (This post was last modified: 05-27-2019, 06:02 AM by GlassMoon.)
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Having OCD really sucks. I used to think it was only the kind of thing where you check that you locked the door fifty times or have to line up things symmetrically, but didn't realize until having counseling a few years ago that it can also be when you're unable to stop thinking about troubling thoughts. And like me I don't think most people realize that either, so I have trouble finding information about this manifestation of it. I envy people who can divide their worrying time and time for fun.

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05-29-2019, 07:06 AM
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It's done... my only remaining reason for going on campus again is for graduation. It's sadder than I expected

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05-30-2019, 09:37 AM
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In a weird place at the same time as wanting to head pat and hug a qt in the pool and also wanting to grab and take off their bathing suit to do stuff
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05-31-2019, 05:16 AM
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Braindead. I really hope that this sickness passes.


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05-31-2019, 05:26 AM
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(05-30-2019, 09:37 AM)Angel Wrote: In a weird place at the same time as wanting to head pat and hug a qt in the pool and also wanting to grab and take off their bathing suit to do stuff

Is that not just something everyone wants to do when they see a pretty girl in a bathing suit? No, just me? ok >.>'

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05-31-2019, 04:13 PM
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I'm in danger as the whole Tripartite back in NS, @Backlash, please send aid whenever you can. The fairy regimes are onto us. :(

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06-03-2019, 11:01 PM (This post was last modified: 06-03-2019, 11:01 PM by Backlash.)
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Tired, happy, at peace with myself. I talked someone out of harming themselves today, so perhaps tonight I can rest easy.

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06-04-2019, 06:15 AM
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A bit annoyed that I'm still sick. I'm usually not this susceptible to illness, but 2019 wanted to beat the shit out of me ig


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06-07-2019, 12:12 PM
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I was going to mobilize my whole guild to its maximum capacity of five thousand but with the "Treaty of the Prague" signed by my Tiyana puppet and another, the "Treaty of Madrid" with the newly formed Visigoths by Copper-Black Cross forces me to change my mind on two-thirds of my Tripartite, so I am sort of having mixed feelings. I was also almost about to call for Academy City to assist me, but then I said to myself eh forget it unless it becomes too much to bear.

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06-08-2019, 04:17 PM
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Tiiiiired >.<

I moved most of my stuff back to my mum's place today

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06-13-2019, 06:43 PM
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Just finished moving out of my uni house. I'm drained and want to die ;_;

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06-17-2019, 08:27 PM
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Not too happy, if we're being honest. My idiot parents are dead-set on proving I've either got autism or some sort of brain disorder, so they've poured over half of their savings (around $4K, mind) to get me tested at this high-end clinic in New York. Normally I'd flat-out refuse, but they pressured me into saying "yes" on a really bad day, and they already paid half the cash.

Swear to god, why can't I live with normal people? I know they mean well, but between this and confiscating my meds, it's hard to see myself trusting them like I once did.

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06-17-2019, 08:42 PM
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(06-17-2019, 08:27 PM)Backlash Wrote: Not too happy, if we're being honest. My idiot parents are dead-set on proving I've either got autism or some sort of brain disorder, so they've poured over half of their savings (around $4K, mind) to get me tested at this high-end clinic in New York. Normally I'd flat-out refuse, but they pressured me into saying "yes" on a really bad day, and they already paid half the cash.

Swear to god, why can't I live with normal people? I know they mean well, but between this and confiscating my meds, it's hard to see myself trusting them like I once did.

What do they even intend to prove with a $4k diagnosis though?

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06-17-2019, 09:01 PM (This post was last modified: 06-17-2019, 09:02 PM by Backlash.)
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(06-17-2019, 08:42 PM)malmon Wrote:
(06-17-2019, 08:27 PM)Backlash Wrote: Not too happy, if we're being honest. My idiot parents are dead-set on proving I've either got autism or some sort of brain disorder, so they've poured over half of their savings (around $4K, mind) to get me tested at this high-end clinic in New York. Normally I'd flat-out refuse, but they pressured me into saying "yes" on a really bad day, and they already paid half the cash.

Swear to god, why can't I live with normal people? I know they mean well, but between this and confiscating my meds, it's hard to see myself trusting them like I once did.

What do they even intend to prove with a $4k diagnosis though?

My therapist asked the same thing, hombre.

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Well, on the bright side, I did cash in on AB's 10th Anniversary event by D/Ling a ton of 2000's anime on freeleech. Oh, and literally everything related to Oreimo and A Certain ... Index/Railgun. So maybe life ain't all bad. ^^

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06-17-2019, 09:42 PM
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(06-17-2019, 09:01 PM)Backlash Wrote:
(06-17-2019, 08:42 PM)malmon Wrote:
(06-17-2019, 08:27 PM)Backlash Wrote: Not too happy, if we're being honest. My idiot parents are dead-set on proving I've either got autism or some sort of brain disorder, so they've poured over half of their savings (around $4K, mind) to get me tested at this high-end clinic in New York. Normally I'd flat-out refuse, but they pressured me into saying "yes" on a really bad day, and they already paid half the cash.

Swear to god, why can't I live with normal people? I know they mean well, but between this and confiscating my meds, it's hard to see myself trusting them like I once did.

What do they even intend to prove with a $4k diagnosis though?

My therapist asked the same thing, hombre.

Well, on the bright side, I did cash in on AB's 10th Anniversary event by D/Ling a ton of 2000's anime on freeleech. Oh, and literally everything related to Oreimo and A Certain ... Index/Railgun. So maybe life ain't all bad. ^^

Man that sounds rough. Hope you enjoy the anime binge though! <3

Also idk, I've been in a weird empty kind of mood all day.


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Now I am in debt
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6 hours ago
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Someone in my family is fighting cancer right now, which is very sad to me, but the doctors caught it early, which is a good thing. After so many months of my skilled writing yet it did no good against my persistent rivals because either they're smarter than I am or decided to turn into unethical RP'ing to wreck me to oblivion, so I made a heartfelt RMB statement to my other friend that I had enough and abandoned NationStates as well as ditching my Tripartite but whatever I had wrote to that point will still be there through the Boneyard, where dead civilizations end up there. I made sure the AFP's leader and its members would on occasion make contact with @Backlash to see what is up.

I'm also planning on becoming an indie RPG developer starting on my 23rd birthday to get young children to high school from all over the world wanting to experience Lucia's past, but before I do that, I have to get help from @GlassMoon and other like-minded friends on here to get through my Zodiac RPG thread first. I'll code whatever we wrote into my game but it won't simply be called Zodiac Girls RPG, it will be released as Zodiac Starchildren instead and I'll try to make it look as close to a visual novel I really want as possible.

However, just as I was about to begin my day, Windows decided to alert me first thing that they'll no longer want to update my Windows 7 beginning in 2020, leaving me in a crossroads on whether I am going to risk keeping this PC around but with greater risk to security breachings or techincal mishaps, or attempt to save up for a Windows 10 in which I don't have right now.

My duties in Anderlusia as well as the Tripartite inevitably have to come to an end because of the aforementioned unexpected events, sadly. :(

"I am finally back and ready to avenge my fallen homeland for what is right for my people." ~ LucianDreamer

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